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Hey everyone! It has been a while since my last post. My goal this year is to be a bit more active on my blog. I wanted to talk about movies that I can no longer watch. Some of them I used to watch all the time and a couple of them are a little more recent. So here we go!

Okay so some of you know that I lost my husband almost six years ago. It will be six years this October. Okay so after the tragedy that changed my life the two movies that I loved were Selena and Ghost, (You know with Patrick Swayze?) No I don’t dislike or hate this movies, they are really good movies and I loooove them. However I hate the endings. I watched these movies all the time! Sometimes once a day, but once that happened I quit watching them. If I do watch Selena I will turn it off before the end.

I avoid any kind of sad movies because it brings back all of those painful memories and also leaves me feeling some type of way. So long after the movie is over I will be in the saddest mood. I won’t even try to watch Ghost.

Another movie that I saw was Best Man Holiday. Now this is the movie where everyone was saying how sad it was and how much it made them cry. So  I’m like “Really?” “Y’all so dramatic, if I  go I know I’m not going to cry!!” Boy was I wrong. Little did I know it would bring back every single memory and make me cry. In fact if I wasn’t in the movie theater with a bunch of strangers I would have sobbed like a big baby. I mean every single person in the theater was crying and all you heard was sniffling. The next movie on the I can’t watch list is Big Hero 6. Man! It’s a family movie but it had me crying and what really got me the most is it made my youngest son cry. He was bawling! Now he was four months when his dad passed and it affects him the most. So seeing him hurting really upset me and made me cry more.

One more movie and that is Steel Magnolias. The remake with Queen Latifah. Another one that brought back memories most definitely the hospital and all that. It caught me completely off guard!

 Hopefully one day I can get enough courage to watch all of these again but until then I will be avoiding ALL these movies!

Hey everyone! It’s been a while! I hope everyone is doing well. Okay so I have been seeing the #Dearme videos going around on YouTube and thought I should do one. It was all fun and games until I got to the emotional subjects. Whoo lawd! It has me feeling some type of way. I gave myself younger self advice that was so so true, but I did not think that it would made me feel like this. I don’t know who came up with the video Idea but it is really good. That’s it for this post. Until the next one!

Happy New Year everyone! I am blessed to once again see another year! I am beginning another year with love and happiness. I remember how unhappy I used to be a few years ago. I remember when I used to sit around and cry. I am glad I don’t have to go through that again. I don’t have to hurt because of this person. I made it through another year with the pain he brought me, without the hurt he brought me, and the tears.
So I would just like to say that as I look back and continue to move forward, I can do it knowing you are way behind me. Far in the past. I don’t have to sit up in the middle of the night and continue to wonder where you are or what you are doing.I don’t have to be degraded, disrespected or called out of my name.I don’t have to hold my tongue for fear of being slapped. I can be happy. I can be me. I can be free!